2013 september semester

开学四星期了，什么也没做，只是不停的煲剧，日煲夜煲，日剧韩剧都快被我看完了，疯了我…… 下星期三个 midterms, 一个assignment, 下下星期两个 assignments, 一个 presentation, 而基本上从开学到现在我没有在听课没有在读书，tutorial 也不管，心也不在，更夸张的是三个星期后就是 final 了，我到底在干嘛呀?! 这是什么生活啊?!

原本以为十一月十二月可以 skip 掉 co-op 1, 那知被那个跟 procedure 跟得死死的 lecturer reject 掉我的 application, 气死我，我的假期就这样跟我说 bye bye 了，计划好在那段时间读书考paper 的，现在却要一面工作一面读书，haiz...... 而且我没得回槟城了 T.T 悲哀~

很快的还有一年就要毕业了，但还没有踏入社会的觉醒，是不想面对自己已经到达那阶段了还是认为自己还不够资格去进行下一步?? 算了，那是一年后的问题，一年后再想……

学校前好像是要开间starbucks, 不确定但听说好像是，读了两年你才开，玩也啊。可以想象完全被学生光顾的starbucks, 少了种high class 的感觉，不是看不起学生，只是认为少了种享受而已，谁去starbucks 不是为了那种气氛? 那我不会干脆在咖啡店或家里喝咖啡就好? 算了，有好过没有，不过我觉得我顶多也是 take away, 坐在那会遇到很多小弟弟小妹妹，而且还是不懂事的那种，haiz.....

明天看医生，哈哈，可以光明正大的不去学校，又可以出去玩，爽~ 你看，才讲下星期考试现在却想出去玩，哪来的心读书啊? 过了明天再说……

无聊的生活…………真的很无聊





hui yin

《告白》

如果你以为我被告白还是去告白，那你错了，我想要说的是这个《告白》

前两天去了书展，扫了一大堆书回家，钱包却空空的。不自禁佩服我自己竟然能扛这么多书搭LRT 回家，更棒的是我现在正final 着，却有这美国时间闲情的看小说，看来我这次考试打算死得很惨…… 废话不多说，快进入主题吧，这种时间写 blog, 我疯了我。

这是我第二本读完的小说，先前读了读了藤井树的《挥霍》，改天再聊藤井树，现在先说的是这本《告白》。作者—— 湊佳苗，是名日本人，所以也说明了这是一本日本翻译文学小说。平时我很少接触翻译文学小说，英文翻译华文就另当别论，不过最近也不太喜欢英文翻译华文，因为毕竟是翻译的，许多美丽的文字，句子所要表达出来的感觉，还有文章的层次感，流畅度都很不对，不同语文有不同的表达方式，就像是写作文，写essay 时不能用华语去想该怎么写的道理一样，所以还是看回原文的比较好，除非那是掌控之外的。

不知觉又废话了很多，说回来，我是因为《往复书简》才知道《告白》这本书的。这两本都出于同一名作者，从前者书里的简介得知后者是本很了不起的小说，而其实后者才是作者成名作，那么刚好一年后在同一个书展让我看到这本书，好吧，不妨看一下，到底厉害在哪里。（通常的很多奖的书都被我归为无聊到极点的书，对不起，我肤浅，看不懂太深奥的书）p.s. 其实《往复书简》我也是看得头昏脑胀的，啧，翻译。

好，又偏离了，到底什么时候才开始重点啊，已经开始犯睏了。

内容大意：
一位中學女老師在校園游泳池內發現自己的四歲女兒意外溺斃，後來經她私下調查，原來是班上兩位學生謀殺的，但殺人動機實在荒唐。痛失愛女的老師辭職，因學生會受日本少年法保護，故不向警方申請重新調查，而在結業式那天向全班學生告白真相，並透露了她的復仇計畫，在學生們的心底種下恐懼的因子.....

~摘自维基百科（懒惰打 >.<）

整本小说巧妙的地方是它以不同人，不同角度和看法构造的。通常我们都是站在主角的角度看待整件事情，但这本小说总共有六章，以六个角度，六种中心点出发，其中包含了主角们以及他们身边的人。奇妙的是，读完整本小说，说不出到底是谁错，错在哪里，每个人做的事情都有他们的理由，从我们自己的角度看，或许你会觉得那是大错特错，天底下怎么会有那没良心的人，但是如果我们置身事内，那么做出这些事情，其实并没有想象中的过分。所以，总结是？…………好难做总结哦 …………………………………………………………………………………………想了好久，我只能说，去学佛。人类感情太多了，视野，想法，心胸，都太狭窄，事事以自己为中心点，会出事的。还是第一次发现原来佛教会我们许多，虽然我不太懂。

再来，怎个故事的进度也很棒，有连贯性，开始看就会停不下来，因为你会发现事实一件一件浮出水面来，前一刻发现原来是这样啊，下一刻，蛤，原来是这样才对。有机会的话不妨看看这本小说，还不错，只不过读完之后可能需要看一整天的蜡笔小新，因为现在的我，心情很复杂。

好了，管它什么心情，我只知道我该去睡了，已经早上七点多了，该读的书没读，不该做的却做了一大堆，时间就这样浪费掉了，我疯了…………


bye


hui yin

first outing in july !!!

okay, i don't know what's wrong with my laptop, it just don't let me choose Chinese language, so, i have to write it in English...., not my fault.....

today me and my coursemates went to Publika for the first time!!!! Wanted to go there ages ago but they always complaint it's too far >.< and today, probably something wrong with their mind too, like my dear laptop, decided to have our lunch there. We reached there around 3pm, due to the awful friday traffic but it's not a big deal to me since i am totally free today, yeah~ no class on friday :) 

We have no idea what to eat there, so we wonder around the building hunting for food. Actually i wanted to try Namoo cuz i saw lots of posts and photos about it and the reviews also not bad BUT one of them don't like Korean food, so...... no fade, probably next time, with other people. After going round and round, we finally made up our mind -- The Social. The funny part is it is the first restaurant we passed by and then at the end we chose it. 

It's actually a bistro, so the decoration is different from the restaurant we usually visit. The bar is located at the center with a pastry case in front of it, facing outside and the bar is 4-faced bar, like a square bar, with racks of wine at their back. Top right corner of the bistro is the pool area, not sure who can use it, not interested in it. And it also has a huge outdoor area, which i am not interested also, the weather is so hot, who want to sit outside??.....the foreigners......and also the smokers.

The prices of the food are not cheap of course, but still acceptable, RM 20++, once a while still okay la. I forgotten what we ordered already, so u all  guess what we ate from the photo below. I never remember any names, like I never ever can remember any names in biology, or sejarah or whatever, alphabets are not my thing.  

Overall the food taste not bad, didn't feel that my money is thrown into the sea, and i like my hot chocolate too :) so full after eating our lunch, probably will skip dinner and eat supper. Some said the food is better compare to Three little pig and the big bad wolf but i felt both also not bad. Conclusion, everyone have different taste. Five of us ate about RM 180++, most expensive ever in our record. 

After our late lunch, it's already about 5 pm, and they actually have class at 5.30 pm, it is impossible to make it in time cuz the traffic is so terrible at that peak hour. After struggling about skipping the class or not skipping the class, we finally reached school at 6 pm, wish your lecturer didn't scold you all. So basically that's what i did today. 

I didn't take lots of photos because i didn't plan to write a post about it at first, I am just too boring doing nothing now, and i feel like my blog is dying, so, write something lo. In fact, I have two tests, one presentation and one  quiz submission next week, lots of due date assignments waiting to be done, and I am 'enjoying' my time here, probably i am crazy...... oh ya, final exam timetable draft is out, congrat me, i only left one month to study. 

Its about 4 am now, I better go now, do something more meaningful, at least for next week, but i got the feeling i will watch youtube after i posted this blog, speechless me. See you guys soon, bye~

hui yin

new target

My new target

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abs

I don't want to be too muscular, I just want the lines

Aren't them beautiful??

hopefully I have the determination to work it out

hui yin

:(

not feeling well..... :(
what is going to happen on me?? i don't think i am capable to go through it once again... haiz.....

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此刻心情：


明天考试但对这科完全没概念，完完全全一片空白—— 恐慌。

原来我的病情并没有想象中的好—— 咦？

原来SLE 导致了其他的病症—— ?!!

在当白老鼠中—— 害怕，担心

想把自己当成普通人过日子但身边总是有人提醒自己是病人—— …………

如果…………—— 不想去想

我觉得…………—— 悲观？事实？

我能不能…………—— 不能

我想要…………—— 不可能

为什么…………—— 永远都得不到答案




有时候，连自己也说服不了自己
活下去的理由是为了什么？
行尸走肉的过日子—— 空虚
我现在到底在做什么啊？
…………




其实我并没有很坚强

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事情永远不会照着自己的剧本走，与其希望一切顺利，不如期待未来带给你的挑战。