18 April 2011

哎...

haiz............

最近啊,又发癫了>.<

我已经尽量不去想了,不过它就是一直缠着我

真烦

既然我已作了决定

我就应该守着它,无论如何,都别后悔


就是要坚持下去

我不管了

敢敢赌一把吧!!!!

到时候再看我还活着还是死了

没什么大不了的

顶多从零开始而已嘛

反正我从来就没有拥有过什么

接受自己的命吧

别把自己想得太崇高了

平凡人就过着平凡的日子好了

接受它吧

没什么大不了的.......



如果没有意外发生的话

我下个月就开课了

我不读本地大学了

我还是坚持我所追求的

虽然......

困难重重.....

学院生活,会让我感到自卑

那里都是富家子弟

我?

呵............

在那里读书就得跟他们相处

怎么办?

以我的生活水平是不可能融入他们的社会里的

怎么办?

搞自闭啊?

一直以来我多人介意别人的眼光

我不是大家所看到的那样坚强

我也会害怕

可是我没有任何依靠

所以只好死撑

结果就变成所谓的'坚强'

很可笑吧............我是这么觉得的

如果他们排斥我,怎么办?

到时候我该怎么撑下去啊?

如果,很多的如果都然让我很害怕

如果我在想下去真的是会疯掉的.........

这几个月以来我都没正常过

可怜我的同事了

个个都被我弄疯了..............

贵死人的学费啊~

可不可以不要那么贵啊?

怎么解决???

啊~~~~~头痛 >.<

哎...............

努力赚钱吧~

看来

还是 no life 了.......

真悲哀...........

为了理想

我不管

这头死牛,你给我撑下去!!!

10 April 2011

erm.....

phew~ suddenly think that my life should not be so dull, it should be colourful, like rainbow~ :) ya, totally agree with that, this recently have no life at all, besides working and sleeping, is still working and sleeping =.= not even bloging also, haiz....... i should change my lifestyle...... so, i think i wanna draft a list for what should i do. first: stop writing emo things in my blog >.< cuz i want my life be colourful second: think positively. since i have made that decision, just stick to it, dun think so much liao, go ahead and do my best, i believe hard work will have its rewards. third: cut down my working hours. i know money is very very very super duper important to me, but than i wanna enjoy my life, as a young adult, like the others, working is not my full time job yet, i am still a student. so, should have fun before i step into the real life. fourth: do something that i already planned long time ago. so sorry for that, i have abundan u all. fifth: be more social. i am trying very hard to do it right now >.< sixth: change my mindset. should have done that earlier seventh: be more mature. ya, i'm still very childish. eighth: do whatever i feel like to do, just follow my heart. ............... erm..... i think i start talking nonsense again, a lot things in my head now, but than so hard to express them.... haiz..... whatever, slowly write them out la, the main point of this blog is telling myself that i should change, that's all. hui yin

02 April 2011

update!! update!!

finally.... tmr is my off day, although i need to give tuition in the afternoon, but i still consider it as off day, fhew~ finally can get rest liao!!!!! pass few weeks ago, i started to work at gurney tower's starbucks as well, cuz there have not enough partners, so, i went there to help up. it's quite fun working there, got the chance to meet with other partners from other store, see different style of management, and i also learn a lot from there. during the first day i worked at GT, i was very unfamiliar with their things, cuz every store is different, although we have standard prosedures, there are still some differences, at first i was very uncomfortable with it, keep on thinking why like this why like that, but then since i was at GT, i need to adapt myself there, by now i am quite familiar with that place already, GT's starbucks is also a nice place to work at, the manager was my class's facilitator, Akmal, so i saw him before i went there. Adrian and Heidi are the store supervisors, they are very nice people, lots of fun working with them. Faruq and Zul are the partners, they are very friendly too, so glad to meet them. besides, i got the chance to meet partners from other stores as well, like rachel from straits quay, jun shean from 1st avenue, aya from queensbay,and also a partner from pragin mall, can't remember her name d...... in conclusion, GT's starbucks, not bad huh!!! ohya, actually i want to explain about what is so called back-to-back. it is a prosess of working at night and than followed by working in the next morning again, eg. today i worked for closing and then tmr i worked for opening. so now u all probably know what is back-to-back d, and what i actually want to tell u all is i worked back-to-back 3 days in a row...@.@ ya, they said i crazy d, but then is fun, just want to know where is my limit, that's all. so i worked opening at NWP and closing at GT, so......siao...... then the next week more cool, opening at NWP then closing at GT then go back NWP for spring cleaning then go back home sleep 2 hours then opening at NWP then middle at GT, really crazy, i admit that, and then hor......... i took mc for the next day, mucle cramp >.<, consiquence of lack of exercise for a long long period...... but...... shiok!!!!! >.< so, forcing myself to the limit is ......quite fun but very very very tired, now also not yet fully recover, hopefully tmr can get enough sleep, or else they have to suffer some more, cuz i keep on acting very crazy this few weeks.... hahaha!!!! it has been 3 months+ i worked at starbucks d....... never know i can stay at one place for such a long time, let see how far can i go, that's all for today, wait for the next update la!! bye!! hui yin